I actually knew roughly that if I would come as a worker of JP based company, instead of charming salary, no freedom.
Well, it's understandable though not what I want.
Without freedom for discovering or interacting (with tons of troubles tho), being here is meaningless for me.
So I took freedom with poor and insecure status.
Well, I didn't even try, though big company won't hire such a strange person like me anyway 😆